Postscript to 'Accomplishment' Defined

I'm feeling light... and lighter! My mind is clearer. I'm feeling better. Life is good!

AWESOME!!

Precious Moments With My Mom

Hugging her, sleeping with her, and she covers me with blanket from my toes up to my ears and neck, making sure no draft of air penetrates inside so I'm warm and comfortable. (I do the same thing for her.)
Giving her a massage, combing and brushing her hair after bath, walking with her at the front yard for her morning excercise... Eating with her, drinking Coke with her, her favorite drink ("Cheers!")... Chatting with her, joking, laughing! 
Playing Besame Mucho/Quizas, Quizas, Quizas, on the piano for her and singing them with her. (She played and sang "do re mi fa sol la ti do" for me in perfect pitch!) 
Looking at family photo albums and sharing memories together, and more memories and more memories and more...

On my last day at home, I knew, the minute she looked at me and kept looking at me wherever I was going around the house without saying a word, that she knew I was leaving that day. That look in her eyes... on her face - it was UNBEARABLE! 

My mother has dementia. And like the past years, all I can do for now is to call her overseas as often as I can just to hear her voice over and over, and for her to keep remembering me...  until my next trip home again.

I miss my Mom! I love her soooooo soooooo much.....

Feeling What I Feel, Part 2

The following day, I saw OPRAH's Magazine again and reread the cover title, LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE... RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW. I realized I missed a word.... START RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW -

Now that made a difference! The first one read too drastic for me, like I had no choice but that's it! When you're feeling low, it's not easy to just snap out of it. It's not even easy feeling low to begin with. But with the word, START, somehow, it helps to even just start thinking about starting... starting right here right now! That was calming, comforting - that wherever I was in the moment, it was okay to start. To start to live again, just to live again! Not the best life even, but to even just begin to realize that I was alive, I could live again, and be grateful for it! Now I was feeling better and it got better and better...

I read the title again, LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE... START RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW.  Now that, I can do! I can start right here right now!

Feeling What I Feel

On the cover of the latest OPRAH Magazine reads the title, LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE... RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW -

I've been feeling so low these days I just feel that right here right now is not the right time to live my best. I read the title again and slowly it hit me that accepting the way things are right now is living my best in the moment... and so be it.

A Gentle Reminder

Don't forget to say "I love you". Ever... And sincerely. Don't hold back. Love is too precious to keep to yourself. And the person you're not telling it to is too precious not to know. He, she deserves it.

Say it to someone you love, you care for, to something that means a lot to you. Life is too precious to take for granted!

Remember, hey... I love you.

Goodnight...

WARMTH

Lately, I've been seeing this word, warmth, everywhere, on billboards, buses, ads - Everywhere! Or feeling the sensation. On these cold chilly San Francisco nights, warmth, in any context, is most welcome.