Coming Out of Silence

This is actually the first time in weeks (or months, maybe) that I listened to music again. I went to youtube and watched a lot of music videos like it was time to listen again. Remember when I was feeling deep?

Today just felt quite natural to come out of silence and listen to what's out there. Yet at the same time, I still am feeling silence deep within me. It's as if, even as I am aware of what I am hearing and listening to on the surface, I still am experiencing silence deep deep deep inside. It's marvelous, it's magical! It's like having a conversation with God while things are going on around. Like talking to God, or rather, listening to God not talking, but silent. Actually, God is talking to me through silence. God is silent... It is silent... It is in silence... It is Silence...

It may sound or feel impersonal. But it's not. And it doesn't "sound", it doesn't "feel". It just is. It is. It may be impersonal, yet it's personally,"especially delivered" to me. It is both bliss and blissful... Experiencing God through silence is very personal to me. Silence is its language right now. It's vast, it's grand, it's huge, it's miraculous!! It is just immense, the deepest and longest silence I've ever felt so far in my life! It's grandiose! Most superlative!!  So be it. Amen.

IT'S WONDERFUL, IT'S PERFECT.

Holy Thursday

Beautiful service in church tonight - Mass of the Lord's Last Supper, washing of the feet, candlelight procession after mass to Our Lady's Chapel for the Exposition of the Blessed Sacrament! And I did the Stations of the Cross! With jet lag and work schedule, and to be able to do all these, I feel good! Amen.

Beautiful Prayer for New Year's 2011

My schoolmate, Ilo, from high school wrote this beautiful prayer for New Year 2011 and as she said, "... unto forevermore!!!!" and I want to share it here with you all. It's really moving and inspiring! Thanks, Ilo, you're a beautiful soul!

On Dec 31, 2010, at 9:52 AM, Ilo Wallenstein wrote:

Dear Lord, look upon us your favored ones and keep us in the palm of Your Hand.
You have blessed us, you have guided us, you have loved us through.  We
give thanks and we give You praise.

As we enter into another year which definitely brings us closer to the
end of time (whether we like to think that way or not), we rest in the
finished task you have completed and which we just live out according
to Your riches in glory.

Let us not forget that YOu have done it all, once for all.  In the
times when we stray, rein us in ASAP; in the times when we hesitate
because we doubt, remind us, we only are a prayer away; and in the
times when it feels like we have no one, nothing, and so helpless, rain
down faith, that we might remember: our emotions lie to us, our memory
sends wrong and conflicting signals, but that the PEACE in our hearts
where You are as our Lord and Saviour, will carry us through...We live
on Your Promise:
NO WEAPOIN FORMED AGAINST US SHALL FLOURISH.
YOU WORK ALL THINGS FOR GOOD FOR THOSE WHO LOVE YOU AND ARE CALLED TO YOUR PURPOSE.

With such assurances, we WILL, by grace, carry our challenge through!

In prayer unity, we honor You, Lord and Saviour of our lives, now, in
2011, and by your amazing grace, unto forevermore!!!!

Ilo

Passing Thought

Looking at all the paper work I have to catch up on at home, all the things I've got to do and undo in my life, and on and on and on, thank God, when we leave this world, we don't have to carry them along into the next. We simply leave all material things, we leave everything behind, finished or unfinished. That's the end of it! It's much simpler that way! 

Great idea, God!

SILENCE In Church, In My Universe, In the Infinite

After a bowl of "hearty soup" with Zita again last Sunday, (every time she's in town, we take advantage of seeing each other), I went to church for a visit. The service was over so I was by myself, all alone, and, aah, a beautiful experience -

SILENCE... Silence, so profund, all I heard was the sound of hum, the vibration of the universe, beginning from within me, from every cell of my body, expanding out to every pew, the altar, tables, chairs, the plants, candles, statues, the whole church, to the streets, the trees, every pebble and stone, every person, animal, cars, ships, planes, metals, wood, the ocean, every particle of sand, rocks, to the skies, every space, our entire planet, to the galaxies, the entire universe! No separation at all in every single thing, just penetrating through and through... Total sound of silence... The sound of the universe, of the infinite, and beyond and beyond and beyond beyond and...

This must be how the universe began! Dr. John Hagelin, a world-renowned quantum physicist, a leading international investigator on the nature and origin of consciousness, including the higher states of human consciousness explains, "... The human physiology is therefore just a web of sound that is evolving, unfolding and growing, until the ultimate wholeness... is fully expressed." Vedic Engineering - The Chemistry of Sound

I can't explain the science. I only know the experience. And as an ordinary person, the experience is all I want. It's ALL I need - right now! It happens to me every now and then. I wish it happened everyday, 24/7! It's always there, constantly, accessibly! We just have to tune in.

Experiencing the UNIVERSE must be experiencing GOD at its most basic level, and the INFINITE, experiencing GOD beyond and beyond and... - I'm finding out!

What was there before the beginning?? - GOD.

Yes, but, what was God before the beginning?? - GOD.

I know, but what was God "like" before the beginning?? - GOD.

Before the beginning, before the be... ing, before be... ing?? - GOD.

Before, Befo... Be... ?? - GOD.

In The Beginning...

Last night, as sleepy as I was, I watched "How The Earth Was Made" and "The Universe" back to back on History Channel. As I've said, I'm always into the origin of things. I must be God, (Dare I say???), or at least, like God! But God doesn't have a beginning nor end. So where does that leave me? Where do I go from here?

I keep searching and I keep searching and I will keep searching...

As I kept watching "The Universe", somehow, it convinced me, no, it did more than that! Once and for all, it validated the truth, the fact - everything about GOD! God is not just a HE as our religion had always told us since time immemorial, not just a SHE as later introduced in metaphysical sciences, beliefs, etc., but IT! God is the totality of all three - three in one, one in three! Yes, watching "The Universe" last night on TV was fascinating!! It was as if God, finally, revealed Himself, Herself, Itself to me! It was GOD "starring" in its totality - in oneness, in the universe!

I've been watching the universe, I've been watching God, in real life. But realizations of God would come in fragments, a little here, a little there. Not that there were doubts in between, No! Never! I live God, in fragments and out, in pieces and in whole. But when I see God in fragments, in pieces, that's when I want to see more. That's when I keep searching! But I don't search for that which isn't there! Everything is there. Even in nothing, everything is in it. And in everything, nothing is in it. There is really nothing to search 'cause everything is already there!

We just live it! We live God! I live God in parts and in whole. When I live in parts, that's when I search for more. When I am whole, I desire no more.

Being human, I keep searching... Being divine, I keep revealing.